Lost…
Dunno wat life style is evyone applying out there..? there’s only 1 word to describe mine now.. LOST.. totally lost.. I do agree that evyone should hav a draft plan for what they going to do, but not a very precise 1… at least not until it gets really near to me..
Js finished the last lec of my uni life today.. will starting my 4 weeks easter break, followed by my grand final~… hav been so so stressed up by this final which counts 60% to my degree.. Found myself differently this year, lose the power n the urge in studies.. used to be studying very hard, working to my very best in my 1st n 2nd year.. i do believe evyone has only got limited power.. i probably hav finished most of mine…
Evyone has been asking me y not doing my master..? even i know deeply that my mum acty hope i can do it too.. she used to think that i’m not doing master js bcoz of wanting to be back in msia be with him all time asap.. but she doesnt know how tired n depressed i am.. kind of sad that she thought me in that way.. do i acty give evyone the impression of i’m that childish n innocent..? or she’s the only one..? maybe it’s my problem too.. i never tell my mum bout my problems, js cant think of a good reason to telling her if those problems is not solvable to her n will js make her worries more..
i think i’m very realistic , but only in some sense.. i may be too fantastic in other sense too.. it may be very hard for 2 ppl to get together.. especially how u cope w each other w evy little bits in daily life.. but i really dun like the feeling that i know he is tired.. but that’s the fact.. dunno wat else i can do w it..
hope i can be more cold-minded.. at least be able to control my feelings… n not being controlled by my feelings..
