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am now far far away.. from evything and evyone i used to be next to.. ‘ve used a month to adapt to it.. suddenly at this moment, still feel the pain.. no longer next to u, seeing u, being with u all time.. no longer can give u a call anytime i like, spent so much time on the phone to crap on evything.. no longer can go to ur place for dinner, or seeing u during my shift, trying to get free drinks from me.. no longer one of ur close flat mates, go to ur room anytime, share anything wit u, now i even need to get ur news from others.. no longer able to chat with u,updating each other evything, really hope that i get to see u this summer, not so much for the macau casino, but js bcoz i wanna see u..

used to think i’m a lucky person, but maybe evyone has limited luck quota in her life, so i probably hav finished most of mine.. might think that u dun need to rely on luck, believe in urself is much more important, but u r not living in a world on ur own.. believe in urself need the agree of others to finish the picture..

ok, stop complaining, but what can i do? ve tried my best, maybe too late, but still.. no one can be right all time, only if i could turn back time? n be perfect in evy move?

missing u, u, u, u, n u, n u, n u,…~

Come n kill me if u can!!!!! Or I’ll kill u first!!!!! in the pursuit of happyness~~~

Was trying to update myself from reading fren’s blog on frenster, js realised not many ppl was using this feature of frenster.. but instead, thanks to lek, I once knew what does the stupid star beside my msn contact mean..y do ppl prefer my space? maybe my understanding power is too poor, i nvr know how to browse ard my fren’s space.. rmb that time i was reading on jian’s space, i knew u wrote a lot, (maybe not many, but at least more than me.. ), but i js cant figure out how to read all ur blogs!!! :@ hate it.. hope u r acty reading this, but i dun think u do.. coz u js made the mistake that I reminded my fren on my last blog, disappointed with u..better not let me face u on the square table again, I’m so going to win all ur $ with no mercy!! hahaha.. I’m overjoyed when picturing this.. hope my dream comes true.. so, for a final shout, is it just me n only me? or is there anyone out there support my argument?? i opt for frenster blog, at least i know how to use it n read my fren’s easily.. hehe.. btw, i ended up reading some random ppl’s blog.. having some fun too.. when u dun even know that guy, but suddenly feel that u know him after reading so much bout his own feeling.. wahh.. :$

Btw, happy new year to evyone~ I dint hav a good start for this year 2007, on the 31st dec’06, I was feeling sick after my dinner, somehow.. then started to stay on the bed.. n feeling my stomach is doing lots of crap in there, makes me run to the toilet… when i almost fell into sleep, waken up by dav’s voice that asking me to hear n see the fireworks out there.. I start hearing the fireworks, but dun even care.. it sounds the same as the noise my stomach making, but much more louder.. haha.. :O >.< but, for those in msia, im sure u guys having lots of fun, coz i can imagine if i’m in msia, n of coz the cdtn is without this stupid incident happening to me, i will enjoy it a lot too.. in a brand new year again.. getting old

Cant rmb when is the last time i log in to my blog, js noticed some comments from u guys.. wonder y i never get an notification email about ppl commenting on my blogs? setting? or is js the fact that they wan u to log in frequently to check on ur own?

A quick update bout myself.. still unemployed.. well, have been working on application almost evyday, sick of it.. someone who hav interest in giving me a job, pls come to me.. will keep trying, but frensss.. pls dun pop up to me with the 1st Qn : got a job? I hate this starting line in msn.. js wait for my good news.. stop adding salt on my wound..

Erm, again, u r the one who inspired me to post a new blog.. hope u will get over it soon, u r the one besides me helping me when i was in that position… i may not doing any good to u, but hope that when u need someone, can js turn to me.. it’s a hard way to go, but i know u can do it.. my heart is a bit pain when u were showing me ur long essay, cant feel how hurt u are.. normal ppl cant be asked to do that.. hahaha.. dunno wat can i say? hope i can introduce myself to u, but sorry not available.. haha.. amee is good.. think bout it..

不想乞你憎
睜開眼等天光四處陰沈
來營造氣氛高聲炮轟
下決心等你任意的嗦擺
你就似猶大
祈求罪人的心態如十誡
明明很憎你　常和她一起
心痛也不想讓你走
如果想我哭
新歡請你給我一一的預告
愛我你沒愛都一句沒有難度
誰都不曾留住你　別太清高
離開請你早
傷心一輩子來問你怎彌補
簡單的快樂都不歸於我
能令我明白到誰是錯蠢人是我
始終不了解
粉身碎骨多慘痛我都捱
仍然願意等奮不顧身
我至少分到被愛的一塊
你就似猶大
人云亦云揀一個隨便去擁戴
同情心不夠　才無中生有
心痛也不想讓你走

dun understand, dun know.. but decided not wan to know.. coz it will never make a difference.. live my own lifestyle.. dun try to make me live on ur advices.. u dun even know wat u r acty doing, where r u heading to..

hoho~~~ so happy, won $$$ from holland casino.. haha~~ geng ar… good blackjack game.. thanks joyce for my amsterdam tripp… muackksss…

thanks for those who spent time in phone or msn with me.. 莎郎嘿哟~

Happy birthday to Jian~~~~~

翻开一本旧日记  记载着一段旧恋情
每段都那么的甜蜜  往事历历在这里
曾看过多少的风雨  曾说过要到哪里去
曾做过觉得傻的事  爱过在这城市里
昨晚下了一场雨  让我忽然梦里见到你
躲在某个地方哭泣  好想紧紧抱着你
有一次从朋友口中听到你消息
我的心都在发抖  你是否孤身一人 ( 我不停追问 )

分手两年后我还是想着你
多久没有见过你  现在你住在哪里
只怕有一天我们都会老去
只想留一点回忆  能够 让我们依靠
我在一个咖啡店  透过玻璃窗往外望
你的人影无所不在  无心无魂的想你
昨晚下了一场雨  让我忽然梦里见到你
躲在某个地方哭泣  好想紧紧抱着你
有一次从朋友口中听到你消息
我的心都在发抖  你是否孤身一人 ( 我不停追问 )

Dunno wat life style is evyone applying out there..? there’s only 1 word to describe mine now.. LOST.. totally lost.. I do agree that evyone should hav a draft plan for what they going to do, but not a very precise 1… at least not until it gets really near to me..

Js finished the last lec of my uni life today.. will starting my 4 weeks easter break, followed by my grand final~… hav been so so stressed up by this final which counts 60% to my degree.. Found myself differently this year, lose the power n the urge in studies.. used to be studying very hard, working to my very best in my 1st n 2nd year.. i do believe evyone has only got limited power.. i probably hav finished most of mine…

Evyone has been asking me y not doing my master..? even i know deeply that my mum acty hope i can do it too.. she used to think that i’m not doing master js bcoz of wanting to be back in msia be with him all time asap.. but she doesnt know how tired n depressed i am.. kind of sad that she thought me in that way.. do i acty give evyone the impression of i’m that childish n innocent..? or she’s the only one..? maybe it’s my problem too.. i never tell my mum bout my problems, js cant think of a good reason to telling her if those problems is not solvable to her n will js make her worries more..

i think i’m very realistic , but only in some sense.. i may be too fantastic in other sense too.. it may be very hard for 2 ppl to get together.. especially how u cope w each other w evy little bits in daily life.. but i really dun like the feeling that i know he is tired.. but that’s the fact.. dunno wat else i can do w it..

hope i can be more cold-minded.. at least be able to control my feelings… n not being controlled by my feelings..

           Erm.. cant rmb when exactly i wrote my 1st blog, but this is definitely the 2nd one.. i’m always lazy to come in n write somehting.. coz really dunno if there is anyone out there free to spend their time here reading wat i wrote.. (so, u r strongly encouraged to write me a comment , even using ur lung to speak,but i do appreciated it)..and today, i’m so intended to write something here.. just for u… LIEW DONG LEK.. ( dun complain, this is always my unique way of spelling ur name..) erm, thanks for making me to read ur blog, really wanna sorry to you .. coz dunno anything when the accident happened to you.. though, always take u as my good fren, but dun really have much time to meet u up or chat a bit… i think that always happen to evy1.. u acty miss a fren a lot.. just that dun have the time or the chance to tell her/him u missed him/her a lot…

        Really agreed with wat lek said, no more privacy after frenster invented this "who viewed me" fctn, but anyway, keep looking at ur frens’ pages to show them u care.. ahh.. i’m starting on crap.. so.. for all my frens, take care over there..

Erm.. have been wonder wat is this blog for..? but anyway, has it started.. so, will try to post more news up to update all my frens bout my latest situation.. For my 1st blog, havent tot of wat to write, but anyway, have been stressful lately.. exam… work.. but thanks for those who supporting me… a fat 1.. and of coz my dear… miss all those back in msia.. cant wait to see u guys, kim.. quite sad unable to meet u this june… :(  i think that’s all for my 1st blog..